THE NOW SOUND

Not physically, obviously; I’m talking about this very moment. Are you present or are you living in the anxieties of the future or the trauma of the past?

The present is a magical place. It can refer to your location and the environment you are in. Deeper than that, I know where I physically am but my mind can be somewhere else. Where does it go when it is not with me? I’m sure you can relate, our lives are busy and it seems like we try to take on many things at a time in order to improve efficiency. Have you ever gotten to that point where you find that the hustle and bustle actually does the opposite?

I live with anxiety. Not to the extreme sense but they are there. I worry about new interactions thinking if I will portray myself a certain way or if I will be accepted. I have worries in my relationship that my boyfriend may wake up one day and decide he doesn’t love me anymore. I roll around in bed trying to fall asleep while my mind races about the million things I have to do tomorrow. These thoughts seem so trivial yet weigh heavy on me. It adds to the stress that I am already experiencing.

Perhaps my worries come from my past. Almost like I have been conditioned this way over time. Sometimes, I think about the time I moved to a different school and didn’t fit in. My jokes weren’t funny to my new classmates and I spent a lot of time alone at recess and lunch. In high school, I had my first relationship. I was head over heels and totally infatuated and he left me, not because we fought but only because he didn’t feel that way about me. It’s hard to feel like you can be yourself when experiences with others tell you otherwise. Does that mean you have to reinvent yourself into someone you’re not? If you think yes, maybe you haven’t found your tribe yet. Out of the 7.8 billion people on earth, I guarantee that there will be people that love you for you and people who won’t for no reason but their own and thats okay.

It’s funny though, I worry about the things that are out of my control. I cannot change the past nor predict the future. So why am I so willing to spend energy there? The present is the point of time where all things are done. It is the only place where you exist. Bringing awareness to the now is sometimes all you need. Remind yourself where you are in order to act effectively. It could be as easy as sitting for a few seconds and feeling your feet on the ground and your back on the chair. You can choose to be as complex as deep meditation for hours like the monks. There are so many ways to practice mindfulness. The clarity you get when your thoughts are not split in every direction (like in my brain where I have trouble focusing all the time) is a powerful tool to accomplish things, to feel at peace, and understand the feelings that may get lost in translation.

Presence is a state of being paired with mindfulness where the only thing you recognize is the moment you are in. That is why I decided to call this creation, The Now Sound. I want to bring you to this moment to find whatever it is you are looking for. Listen within. Be present for you.